31: Compensation

Alanna,

I realize it might be difficult for you to keep yourself pure, it was hard for me too.  But I believe I am belssed by the Lord now, because I did choose  the pure life, as the Psalm from David says:
Psalm 18:20
The Lord rewarded me for doing right. He compensated me because of my innocence.  For I have kept the ways of the Lord; I have not turned from my God to follow evil. For all His laws are constantly before me; I have never abandoned his principles. I am blameless before God; I have kept myself from sin.  The Lord rewarded me for doing right, because of the innocence of my hands in his sight.


I love how it says the Lord will "compensate" us.

So many times, I had the opportunity to do something that was wrong and impure, but I did not, I held myself back, and now, he has compensated me.

All those times I could have gone with someone, mainly, I'm reffering to those "nasty", noughty, or impure  things I could have down with a boy -  God gave me a husband, in my youth, who has physcially blessed me so much more than any of those boys ever could have.

Many times, I simply sacrificed a good friend, because I knew that God did not see (nor myself0 Our relationship going anywhere healthy, and all those times I forfeited a boyfriend, and especially when I forfeited the idea of having a boyfriend, and told God HE was enough for me.

That is when God compensated me and blessed me with more than I could have imagined.

Psalm: 25:4

Show me the path where I should walk oh Lord; point out the right road for me to follow.  lead me by your truth and teach me, for your are the God who saves me.
All day long I put my hope in you.


When you're doubtful if you're doing to right thing, or the wrong thing - chances are you're doing what's wrong if you feel doubtful of yourself)

Then go to God, he'll give you the right direction to go. 

Because you trust in him with all you are and do not lean to the left or the right.